RoyzGirlz

2012-01-30T22:57:00.000-07:00

I have this place I go to.

I know the pebbles, the trees, the deep blue green color of the lake. I feel the occasional breeze, I smell the fishy water, the pines, my soft blanket.

And always I'm watching Roy fish several yards away.

Always. Just watching. I think I've found heaven. Don't wake me.

2012-01-28T15:32:00.001-07:00

{Clearing throat} I absolutely wish, with all my heart, to acknowledge the fantastic skills of my love in taking photos at the dedication while I talked with my heroes. And for always picking up the pieces when I have work to do. I enjoyed spending the evening with you, and eating at famous daves. :) Love you babe!

Dedication of the Bishops Central Storehouse

2012-01-27T17:25:00.004-07:00

Nearly two years ago I had the privilege and wonderful opportunity of jumping on the bandwagon in a memorable project. Last night I joined with many who contributed to this great cause. Though my part was small in the grand scheme, when my father showed me what he called the "Heather wall," I felt honored. This building is huge and serves such a great purpose.

I loved pondering the scriptures and learning the principles of welfare. From Joseph sold into Egypt, to the Savior's mortal ministry, from Alma at the Waters of Mormon, to the early church welfare. I came to love this wonderful work. Many days I thought about being in this hallway.

The Heather Wall - when I saw my lil primary kids on the wall, I almost cried.

These were shoots I had the priviledge of learning from Mark Mabry, and shoots of which my girls were able to be a part of.

My Father didn't know at this time I had my camera or I would've been grounded. Dad with his dear friend Elder Rudd.

I will miss the visits to Salt Lake, and the lunch dates with amazing people. I'm pretty sure those don't have to end. I love the mexican place in salt lake that as soon as these guys walk in they are walked to their booth ahead of anyone else waiting in line.

President Uchtdorf. He is amazing. I love hearing him speak. When you meet him in person, are their words? Not so much.

Sister Beck. So much to say. So much to learn from her. I love this woman!

For the past several months, I've begged my dad to introduce us. I also met Sister Thompson. So wonderful. I wish I could sit down and visit with these sisters and learn from them.

Sadly Mark couldn't make it but he sent his model. I smiled at the reaction of everyone around him.

This is Sister Miller, she was in our stake in Colorado. I came to know her and her husband when dad served in the stake presidency and her husband as a bishop of one of the wards. So great to meet again in Salt Lake.

A great photo to end with. What does dad do now? Haha, he was at work before 7 im sure.

I left with a resolve to develop my talents as an offering, because I love the Lord. Thank you father for this opportunity.

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2012-01-27T16:50:00.001-07:00

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Polar Plunge

2012-01-20T22:14:00.000-07:00

Not long ago Chantel asked me if I would do the polar plunge with her. I am sure I looked at her like she was insane, then I told her to ask her beehive leader. "She'll do anything," I said.

Chantel asked. And she said yes!!! I knew she would. That is the sincerest form of sacrifice, love, just plain amazing-ness. I am in awe that she would do that for my crazy Bub.

Chantel and her "signature mismatched socks" identity.

Chantel asks for the first time, "Carol are you ready?"

Chantel asks for the second time, "Carol are you ready?" And they're off.

I love Carol's face here cause you can tell she feels the cold before Chantel.

This is the face of insanity.

This is the face of triumph!

Way to go Chantel. I am proud of you!!! You embrace life.

Before drying off Chantel had to show her BFF the video of her jump. Silly Silly Chantel.

2012-01-19T13:01:00.000-07:00

Standing at the crossroads. I saw down each path, the person I want to be.

Difficult choice.

I couldn't find it exactly spelled out in chapter 31, so I'm writing my own verse. A verse that describes persistence, strength, and faith in myself.

Seeing and believing it.

Yikes!

2012-01-17T18:08:00.001-07:00

Chantel's style is impeccable. Last week she played basketball in mismatched knee-hi Christmas socks, and tucked in her lime green shirt. Yikes. Thanks to a friend from my youth and facebook, I cannot get after her for trying to be the center of attention anymore. She comes by it naturally.

You go bubby tub. Love LIFE!!!

Number 23 is my Sis Heidi.

Redefining

2012-01-15T17:28:00.001-07:00

Who am I? A question I have discovered that is never truly answered, completely. We always have new opportunities that define us. Trials that shape and realign our actions. Our vision of who we want to become is also ever changing.

This week I've taken a deep look at how I define myself.

Elder Bednar taught me that the toughest decisions are made between two good choices. Often as I study things out in my mind, I want instruction. Tell me what to do, and I'll faithfully do it.

And then my buddy Mark shared the story of Alice.

Alice finds herself coming to a crossroads with two paths before her, each stretching onward but in opposite directions. She is confronted by the Cheshire Cat, of whom she asks, "Which path shall I take?". The cat answers: "That depends where you want to go. If you do not know where you want to go, it doesn't matter which path you take." -Alice in Wonderland

I define who I am to become and the path I choose to take, in the 31st chapter of proverbs. I've discovered what that all entails Heather-version (for today at least), mastering difficult skills.

I'm happy.

In fact, I'm even loving my time in the kitchen. HUGE!

My "dr pepper chocolate" day

2012-01-08T23:07:00.003-07:00

Yep it was one of those days. But the best part for me was the time spent cuddling Ck in our enormous blankets.

Ck made me smile that she was so excited to be big enough to go to a meeting. Her baptism preview. My lil social bug loved that she knew so many friends from school and hugged them, but the listening part was a bit much for her. I guess that girl has a little of me in her after all.

A horoscope I saved from a couple days ago sums up my day, "if you don't trust your talents, no one else will."

I need to find the belief in myself.

2012-01-04T07:26:00.000-07:00

I didn't smack a single apple. I feared with each swing I would be expressing ingratitude for the person I have become.

. . . And I anticipate 2012 to be just as FUN! Can't wait to embrace the unexpected. If I send an apple into the field it'll be to watch the guts fly!

I spoke of just wanting to BE, be what? In my study yesterday I came across two scriptures; 2 Cor 5:17 - "therefore if any man BE in Christ, he is a new creature . . ." and D&C 76:53, "and who overcome by faith . . .". Overcoming here means self mastery.

Self mastery of the habits that take me down, mastery of the abilities I grow, and mastery of the way I endure. Yes, 2012 is a year of faith. Faith that I'll be lead through my experiences. Faith, there will be miracles. Faith in Him.

Reflection

2012-01-01T16:24:00.003-07:00

I love how treasures emerge in forgotten files.

I call this one reflection.

I am so thrilled to leave 2011 behind that I haven't thought much on resolutions for 2012. I need time to reflect on 2011, to be grateful.

But I'm not ready to go there yet. I just wanna be for a day. I have a pile of apples in the back yard. Join me, I have two bats. I can't wait to smack the livin' snot outta 2011.

I'll break down for a minute. And then, I'll be grateful.

All I hope for in 2012 is the gift of seeing miracles.

Christmas 2011

2011-12-28T12:46:00.000-07:00

I've heard it said that dogs sometimes look like their owners. Ha ha!

My totally unexpected gift. Thanks love, but I'm starting to think you don't want my attention anymore. Haha.

Cherakie prepared a snack for santa as soon as we returned from D's.

Christmas Eve at the Humpherys

2011-12-28T12:34:00.000-07:00

2011-12-27T21:55:00.002-07:00

. . . And suddenly I'm back in Sun Valley. Please don't wake me!

2011-12-23T22:10:00.000-07:00

For worthy friends whose lives proclaim
Devotion to the Savior's name,
Who bless our days with peace and love,
We praise thy goodness, Lord above.

I've much to sing praise, for truly I am blessed.

2011-12-20T10:06:00.000-07:00

Chaos best describes our morning, I've taken a couple blows the last couple days but kept my head above water. I'm growing in my ability to stop long enough to feel the spirit, and tell myself I can do this.

Like this morning I asked Chantel to give herself enough time to sort her laundry which accounts for 2/3 the mountain of clothing. Not only did my fantabulous looking daughter walk out the door passed the laundry but she texted me moments later telling me she was out of lunch money. Breathe. I asked her what she was going to do about it. She found a solution. Hopefully her friends will show her mercy. Normally I would've driven a check up to the school grumbling about how it added to my insane busy day.

Ck hates Tuesdays, it's typing day. She hid in my blankets then went back to bed. Dad won on this one. Not long after, she followed him up stairs.

I asked, "what did you do? Threaten with ice cubes or bribe her with treats? He told me he just talked to her. Ofcourse she missed the bus but as we ate breakfast I asked her what dad had said.

"He said that sometimes he doesn't want to go to work, but there are people counting on him. He told me someone might be counting on me."

Someone might be counting on me. Reason enough to go about in this crazy thing we call life. Thank you love for being so gentle!

Christmas Lights

2011-12-18T15:30:00.000-07:00

Roy froze at the potato bowl, we chose to freeze seeing the lights. I'm not quite sure what the girls thought of the city and the insane crowds but it was lovely. First we met Nana D at KFC. They choose this on special occasions. Mandi and her boys also joined us.

I was too into my pot pie and conversation that I had not realized Raquel had filled up 3 times over on Mtn Dew. She bounced across temple square. No wonder she was so warm. We spoke for a moment about President Monson. Raquel said, "Wow, he's famous. They should give him free food." Funny Funny Kel. By the time we stopped for hot chocolate, Raquel was shaking terribly.

She's permantly been banned from caffeine. I'd do well to honor the ban as well.

Lovely evening, grateful to spend the time with Nana D, Mandi, and the kiddos. And pretty lucky to return with all of them.

Christmas Ice Show

2011-12-16T22:54:00.003-07:00

Chantel skated to Silent Night by Aly and Aj. She did fantabulous. Love Sue's choreography. We ordered her dress from Tina's Skatewear, one of our previous dresses we ordered there. Her dresses are amazing, and the crystals hand stitched, and prices amazing. Chantel found this one after I had lost hope and it came within a couple days. It was premade and in clearance, in exactly Chantel's size. Ya we're blessed. I love her customer service. We even had a week to spare - did wonders for my nerves :)

Jalane - you will appreciate that not five seconds into the hockey stinking (SICKO) locker room we filled it with glitter and aerosol hairspray. Much better!!!

Chantel's YW friends who came to watch her.

Chantel's Sk8ta friends, she misses being in the club.

Too much and too cold for miss Raquel. Her attention span lasts longer when she's in the show.

CrAZy !!?!?!??

2011-12-16T08:40:00.002-07:00

Well if you're going to go crazy, might as well take companions! Happy Friday!!!

2011-12-12T22:22:00.001-07:00

Have you ever seen a child, perfectly fine - And then the moment they see their parents who have come to retrieve them, the child melts into weeping sobs?!?! If you've ever served in nursery you've seen it.

That was me. Roy and I had called the girls to dinner, but with no response we prayed without them. He and I alone, across the long table. I offered the routine, "Humpherys Blessing," but before I could finish, I sobbed. I could feel Him, He was listening to my simple routine rushed offering, and yet, He came for me.

I have a few things on my notso favorite list, but not many. Usually if something is there I work to convert it to my fav list, and I celebrate it. For example, someday I am going to love to cook. I'm determined to love it. (but not yet k)

Every once in awhile I find something on my notso fav list that's not so easy. My friend reminded me of a childhood favorite, the movie Rigoletto. Specifically the scene with Porter and Rigoletto. Porter says he hates his father. Rigoletto says,"I think that you love your father and you hate the way you feel. Change the way you feel!"

I hate the way I feel.

Polar Express Party

2011-12-12T14:36:00.000-07:00

Traditons bring to recognition how quickly time passes. Before long these monkeys will be gone. This year we threw a new twist into the mix and invited the kids to perform their holiday numbers.

Landon wanted a turn. We asked him the name of his piece, and he quickly replied, "the ticket." Funny Boy!

Cheese Toast

2011-12-11T12:46:00.000-07:00

Our after church tradition is cheese toast. Usually Roy makes them. His toes were cold so he retired to bed.

Oops, sorry girls - too much cheese!

My Ballerinas

2011-12-10T21:15:00.000-07:00

Miss Raquel and Miss Olivia participated in their first ballet performance at the Cache Valley School of Ballet.
I had the opportunity for an hour and a half Thursday to watch them practice. I LOVE watching ballet, especially when I have the opportunity to observe my girls growing in their skills.

I love that they're in the same class.

Location Location Location

2011-12-06T16:27:00.000-07:00

First off - what the heck happened to my header pic, it was fine yesterday!!!!!

I came home from parent teacher conferences to hear . . . kids doing homework? What?!?!?! I guess location IS everything.
Goofy Girls.

Daddy's Hair

2011-12-06T06:48:00.000-07:00

At dinner one of the girls brought up the topic of boys with long hair. Each of them had a tale to share of such a creature. I looked at Roy and smiled then told the girls that their dad too had long hair once upon a time.

A chorus of "ew" and "gross" followed his description of how it feathered back. Suddenly a vision of shrek's prince charming proudly flipping his hair filled my mind.

Still smiling I told the girls that when Dad flew to Denver to ask me to marry him he cut it. I remembered the first sight of him coming off the plane. He looked ten years younger.

The first token of his love that would preceed many. :)

Family Pictures 2011

2011-12-04T20:08:00.000-07:00

I once vowed to never shoot in snow, but I love em.

A reverse to do {DO TO}

2011-11-29T22:25:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I didn't accomplish much. Felt crappy. Ya know the feeling! When you crash for the night with the "to do's" still out numbering the "i've done's." So today i didn't start with a "to do" list. I wrote things down as I did them. And my list grew! I found ways to lengthen my accomplishments and it felt fantabulous!!!

All the things I thought to DO TO my day. Happy day. Tomorrow I look for miracles.

Stop to pray

2011-11-29T16:52:00.000-07:00

Cherakie handed me this note in Sacrament Meeting. Hmmm whatcha saying?

Royzgirlz at the ballet

2011-11-28T15:06:00.001-07:00

When Roy wondered if the nutcracker were a must I asked each girl, "What do you love about the nutcracker?". Without hesitation they each responded, "I love to see them dance." Hailey even added, "I'll even eat dinner at home first." I shushed her quickly. Afterall dinner at the fancy restaurant is part of our girls night. I knew especially that Raquel, Olivia, and Chantel would love it because ballet is their favorite form of dance but I was surprised how my soccer chic was at the edge of her seat during the performance.

2011-11-23T16:33:00.000-07:00

My fav's

2011-11-22T14:15:00.000-07:00

Boot season is my fav! Though my feet throb at the close of the day, though my lower back kills me, I LOVE em. Especially heels! I love walking in them all fancy smancy, I love that my steps have an echo, and I LOVE that my socks don't have to match - tee hee! Boots rock!

My other fav's {in no specific order}:
Hats. Bling headbands. Big rings. Painting nails with my lil ladies. DP. Sound of my blades on the ice. Conquering a new skill at the rink. A new skill that kicks my butt. Miss Me's. Josh Groban. Coach time. Friends. Hugs. Cuddles with my girls. Making cookies. Late night runs for Milk with Sherrie. Cleaning. All day in the temple. Afternoon naps. Children's artwork. Chocolate. Being loved. Silly Lori. iPhone. The man I call Betty Crocker. My Blanket. Eating out. Castle/Mentalist. My primary children :). Roy's big hands. Ironing. Singing "lil girls" from Annie with my lil girls (really loud). Waters of Mormon. Camping. Memory foam. Clouds in pictures. Mossy canals. Roy's approval. Saturday morning HomeTime show. Post game with Stew Morrill. Good choices my kids make. CLEAN BEDROOMS. Loving. Being mom. Jumping in the lake. Climbing the last ledge of a mountain and having resolve to conquer the next trial. Refinement. Fancy Serving dishes. Piano music. My window I daydream in. Serving with amazing women. Long underwear. Hot chocolate. Feeling the spirit. Hoodies. My canon 5d mark 2. Ronda's smile. Laughter. Imperfections. Jumps. Chantel's crazy brown eye. Freckled cheeks. Shoots with friends just for fun. Warm sun. Kissing. Medium steak-yum. Art that moves me. Scriptures that speak to me. Hot showers. Scrabble. Photographs. Pajamas. Soup spoons. Necklaces. Gently falling snow. Books that take me away.

Celebrating Gratitude

2011-11-21T12:45:00.000-07:00

Skating. Nutcracker. Snow. Treats. Food. Family. Decorating. Music. Tradition. Time.

Have a great week!

Simply Perfect

2011-11-20T18:23:00.000-07:00

Did you see them?

"Nature is full of genius, full of the divinity; so that not a snowflake escapes its fashioning hand."
~ Henry David Thoreau

Advil, please!

2011-11-19T16:53:00.000-07:00

I'm convinced shopping is NOT my thing! Embrace the crowds right? That is what I kept telling myself while I waited in line at old navy. I wondered what sale I was missing out on as we were just there for pants long enough for miss Olivia. I am determined to not spend the next six weeks in the check out line! But isn't this penguin cute?

While cruisin' down main Raquel commented on how different I looked with long hair when Chantel was a baby. Ck said, "don't worry mom you're weren't white and nerdy" then Ck started talkin gangsta on me! Haha wow! Thanks! I guess!

Bye dog friend

2011-11-17T08:40:00.000-07:00

Today we loose Rocco. Raquel called me from school this week concerned that he was already gone. I hope she can function at ballet.

I do like how she offers a solution to her grief! Buy me a stuffed animal that looks like Rocco. Hmmm. It's amazing how "buy me" fixes empty things.

Love ya Mandi. Hard day!

Elephants on parade

2011-11-17T01:16:00.001-07:00

1:30 am. Awake. This week in elephant communications. Humor me.

This was Ck's interpretation last week. She's the midget Ellie in between mom and dad. A need to feel special maybe? Tonight I took her on a mommy daughter date to the grocery store. She does like special attention lately. However, i loathe grocery shopping. I should do it more often.

If these interpretations predict what may come, I'm not sure I'm up for what Raquel sees. Umm, We'll call it dodgeball. Life is all about fun, eh? What happened to that? And dreaming? I'm ready to dream again. Dream big. I did have a GREAT day skating :)!

At this point, sleep would be great. My scrabble friends slumber!

2011-11-16T14:00:00.000-07:00

My to do lists are happy lists

At the end of the day I throw it away not caring if it's all done, but I do love checking things off. :) :)

SnOw BaLLs aNd ToMoRRows

2011-11-15T07:37:00.000-07:00

Lately, the idea of being home alone has nearly driven me looney. Literally. Crazy {haha}right?

Silence had once been my joy, the first moments after everyone departed on their way, my sanctuary, my most sacred time of day.

Life has a way of snow balling you without granting processing time. There is purpose for it, our hearts have to grow and change. I want mine to. I want to be refined to my fullest capability.

As I have struggled to steady my ground while the "snow balls" have blasted, I've learned a few things;

Firstly, I have learned to tune into the voice of the spirit. If this lesson has been the sole purpose of my struggle, then I'm deeply grateful. I've been taking notes (literally) of the thoughts of which I've been imprisoned. I've listened carefully, and judged cautiously their source, sometimes seeking clarification in prayer.

Secondly, I work with an amazing woman in ward council. I met with her Sunday and among other things we discussed the uncertainty of the future. She told me that all we have to count on is tomorrow. Not next year, not ten years from now. As I've pondered that I've realized, one - how manageable that is, and two - somehow working towards mending things today and tomorrow somehow diminishes the pains of yesterday as well as the anxiety of the unknown. As I fix what is broken today, previous bands no longer bind me.

Third, I've gained a greater appreciation for family. I have so much gratitude for Roy, and for our happy little "world" we've created. I'm grateful that family is central to Heavenly Father's plan of happiness. Of course the adversary knows this. But, so do we.

Fourth, with each new struggle, comes an opportunity to draw near unto the Lord. To appreciate Him more. To feel His presence more. I realized my sanctuary, my sacred time, would be restored doing those things that bring me closer to Him. I read this morning Moroni 10:32, the plea to come unto Christ and be perfected in Him. What do I have to do? First come to Him, second deny myself of all ungodliness, and third love God with all my might mind and strength. Then His grace is sufficient. Then by His grace, my heart is changed.

I have forgotten who I am. But now I remember who I want to be and the steps necessary.

That is what I've learned. The end.

Saying Goodbye

2011-11-14T10:45:00.000-07:00

Last night we said goodbye to our dear friend Rocco. He's leaving us this week. I never thought I'd get attached to a dog.

Raquel has cried for weeks, Rocco is her buddy at the greens because no one is her age.
It's been hard watching him that last little bit, especially not seeing the spark and personality we've grown to love.

"Dog Pile"
Ck and Axel

Note to self

2011-11-14T09:21:00.000-07:00

Self, do not entrust provident man with your own self sacrificing behaviors. Power trip will ensue. The end.

My name is Heather . . .

2011-11-12T18:45:00.000-07:00

. . . And I'm addicted to my iPhone. After Ward council tomorrow, I'm handing it over to Farm Boy. {I don't imagine we'll communicate more as he is as addicted as I, haha}. Goodbye words with friends, goodbye pandora, goodbye texting-blogging-Facebook. I'm spending a day at Walden's pond or maybe the waters of Mormon.

I'm out to see if it's possible to live 24hrs unplugged in today's world. Wish me luck :)! Wow, kinda feels like jumping into a frigid pond - adrenaline - anxiety?!?!?!

Of Bats and apples :/

2011-11-11T23:35:00.000-07:00

While cleaning {pretending to clean} the garage with Roy, we found bats. Kenton, Roy, and I took care of the rotten apples. The best stress reliever ever!!!!

I'm not sure exactly what I was seeing with each smack of the apple! I'm sure it began with a vision of the stack of apples I've labored on each day. The huge-gantic pile that doesn't seem to be disappearing! And then covered in apple guts from head to toe, I'm sure I felt many things blast away with the morsels of gush.

I'm grateful. For bats. For apples . . . that die.

RIP Cougars!!!!!

2011-11-11T21:14:00.000-07:00

69-62 CYA!

Love our Aggies! Love Stew! Thanks for the win! Gotta go listen to the postgame Coach is on!

2011-11-09T19:26:00.000-07:00

She paints so lovely, a picture of peace!

I found this on the wall outside Raquel's classroom before our school lunch date. Thank you for reminding me.

2011-11-09T06:53:00.000-07:00

He said "look", and I looked, and I beheld that it had been here all along.

Ethan James Law

2011-11-07T21:26:00.000-07:00

My CraZy fUn FaMiLy

Cherakie and Anna Jane hiding in the pantry

Ethan James baby blessing. Yes I hogged him. And bundled him up. And loved him. So cute.

First Snow '11

2011-11-05T11:40:00.000-06:00

It will do you no good to chastise me for listening to Christmas Music. I'll listen to it anyway. December is way too short to celebrate it. I am THANKFUL for Christmas Music, and family time, and party time.

Raquel fell asleep watching for the snow begin, I cannot blame her then for bouncing into my room excited out of her mind, should not stayed up so late! But it was a good movie :) we ate donuts and drank chocolate milk to celebrate! Wish the first snow excitement would last until spring!

2011-11-03T08:49:00.000-06:00

I couldn't sleep the other night, I found myself at the piano. I played softly hymns of the Savior. Last night Olivia requested an encore. She cannot sleep either. It's ironic that those that are assigned to make sure she's safe are the ones she fears most. I say nothing only words to reassure her they are the "good guys," she's confused about that. What an odd world this is.

Last night, I lost myself in, Abide with Me; 'Tis Eventide. The third verse especially. Stay

My little Ck ran to my arms this morning, she had a nightmare she was hurt and I wasn't there. We cuddled till duties called then she walked to the bus in tears wanting to stay with me. My heart yearns to leave the five I might rescue today for the one who needs me most.

Stay

Raquel's Elephant Interpretation

2011-11-02T09:07:00.000-06:00

Raquel leaped out of bed when I whispered to her that I had dusted the piano.

My instincts say she's feeling safe and obedient, as I admire the elephant children returning to their parents who love eachother, and whose parents love them ofcourse. Their hearts are turned to their children. I thought of the admonition to have a house of order, etc.
I smile! This is by far one of the most enjoyable moments of my week!

A genetic frivolity

2011-11-01T18:29:00.000-06:00

This is my great grandmother. I remember her though I was only four when she died. She was gentle, and beautiful, and fancy (my four year old observation). Grandma told me that during the depression her mother always had a new hat. And that my friends is what my great grandmother and I have in common! A love of hats! My fav place to buy them is calling me bad, and giving into that frivolity would be the most rebellious thing I could do.

I don't know why she loved hats so, but there's something mysterious about a hat. Haha, perhaps I'd like to give a little bit of my life back to mystery. . . But anyway you look at it my love of hats is a genetic thing. I come by it naturally. Somehow (for now) my obedience is winning over my frivolous behavior. :(. Tee hee . . . But I make no promises!

Halloween 2011

2011-10-31T22:34:00.000-06:00

Festivities began last night carving. Roy became killer Betty Crocker yesterday making the best breads, and pumpkin seeds. We grew these pumpkins in the garden.
Boogah Brown . . . seriously the wig fits the name.

Traditional mugshots infront of the greens

Shaggy

Kids all over the house. Laughter. All out Pigout. Oh and I wore flip flops trick-or-treating. Splendid.

2011-10-29T22:25:00.000-06:00

After chores today I sat down to sew the pantaloons I should have completed last March for the photoshoot with Mabry. I found joy in adding embellishments. It is true that no one will see the pantaloons. It is true that pioneers didn't have irridescent ribbon and bows, nor did they have sewing machines with computer generated fancy stitching.

But I smiled thinking of my very pioneer looking girl. I love to see her in the dress. I thought of how much fun she'll have wearing these pantaloons she has asked me for.

. . . and then my thoughts turned to mothers. Women who sent their children, sometimes one by one to cross an ocean alone. To travel the plains for Zion, a new found faith. I pictured myself sewing these pantaloons and making them special, preparing my daughter for such a journey. Hoping that they would be a reminder of my love, and care, not knowing if ever in this life we would meet again. How could a mother make such a sacrifice?

Faith.

2011-10-28T21:02:00.000-06:00

Introduced Olivia to our Aggie tradition. The first game of our 7th season. She thinks our fans are mean?!?!?!?

Best part . . . Finding all my peeps! Especially ones with better seats :) :) Luv ya sisterfriend!

the Elephants

2011-10-27T13:16:00.000-06:00

A favorite privilege of the girls, is situating our family of elephants when I dust the piano. Sometimes the elephants play hide and go seek around my pictures. Sometimes they walk in a line. Sometimes the mom and dad are together as the little elephants play in the distance.
Sometimes they rally around one another. Sometimes I wonder if they reflect the mood of our home.
A couple weeks ago, Cherakie asked to take her elephant for show and tell. I let it go to never return.
Today I had to smile when dusting. I found CK elephant made it home, and she stood nustled into momma's trunk for safety.

2011-10-26T21:12:00.000-06:00

Nephi had a mountain to climb, in an ocean and In building a ship. These are his words:
18:3 And I, Nephi, did go into the mount oft, and I did pray oft unto the Lord; wherefore the Lord showed unto me great things.
And . . .
18:16 Nevertheless, I did look unto my God, and I did praise him all the day long; and I did not murmur against the Lord because of mine afflictions.

Nephi is teaching me that I need to go to the mount often and pray . . . And that I should praise the Lord and not murmur because of my afflictions. Being in the temple today was wonderful! I love stake temple day, running into dear friends no matter where I turn. Spending more hours than usual. Leaving with an abundance of peace and resolve. I do go to the mount often to pray but I'm afraid i've murmured oft. Be grateful!

Reason to smile :)

2011-10-26T08:38:00.000-06:00

For some reason this subtle Christmas wish gave me joy? Normalcy?!?!? Thanks love!

2011-10-25T22:45:00.000-06:00

If you were to find yourself at the base of a mountain, and you knew on top of that mountain were a more perfected and refined you . . . though you would find yourself battered and bruised . . . though at times you might loose your footing . . . Though the fear of the unknown paralyzes . . . And at times the guilt of wanting to quit nearly destroys your spirit . . . Would you climb it?

Putting on my climbing shoes.

Soccer's End

2011-10-25T20:19:00.000-06:00

Ck played a great season.

She loved playing with Baylie and for her Coach Baylie's mom.

She struggled a little bit after a hard hit to the face.

{I ran out on the field for that one}

But towards the end of the season the MIgHtY was FinDing Its WaY bAcK Out. Go mighty CK!!!! The best part of the season . . . no blizzards nor torrential rain.

Hunt '11

2011-10-24T07:17:00.001-06:00

Shortly before departing for our last camp of the season, Raquel started balling cause she'll miss Rocco. He was our skinny lil gramps wandering around our camp and won't be with us much longer. We camped further up the canyon which was lovely because I had no desire to return to reality.

Raquel was timid around Axel, the Green's new dog, at first. But had some great bonding time. When cars or fourwheelers would go past we'd have to call Axel back. When yelling his name real loud, kinda sounds like you're calling someone a bad word, haha.

Mandi helped the girls and Keat, and Franken Berry Dingle Fritz shoot the bb gun, while the girls made bracelets.

Rocco doesn't eat much anymore, but he must've remembered the bond he has shared with Roy always slipping him food when Mandi wasn't watching. He got Rocco to eat, except he did like my beef jerky. Maybe he just has expensive taste :0).

Coming home was a little somber, I waited till the last possible moment, um I mean I kept the fire going till the guys came back from hunting. My return prompts the wintering of the camper trailer, the reality of another long winter, and enduring.

Oh and in case you're wondering . . . Roy didn't find Bambi's dad.

2011-10-23T21:51:00.000-06:00

When forces inside my home, challenge. When forces outside my home, question.

How can I not doubt?

I've been working on Divine Nature #6 the past week or so. I've studied Divine qualities and pondered them in my mountain sanctuary. I've come up with 20 divine qualities or what I'll call characteristics of a woman of covenant. They are; peacemaker, love, joy, long-suffering, gentle, goodness, faith, meek-lowly of heart, temperant, spiritual, merciful, kind, humble, forgiving, charitable, grateful, feasting upon the words of Christ, doing all in the name of Christ, enduring all, and prayerful.

I LOVE being a mother. I LOVE my home. I LOVE my family with all their quirky behaviors, I love them for all their weaknesses, for all their strengths. I have much growth yet ahead of me. I'm on a journey to develop these qualities. Drawing near to the Lord . . .

How could I doubt?

2011-10-17T07:58:00.000-06:00

First thought Monday morning - where did the big spider go that lived in the mason jar?

Just a lil like me :)

2011-10-16T22:07:00.000-06:00

Beka helped Chantel with math tonight, and our silly sister ran back across the grass in the dark bare foot. Sadly the wind knocked a mason jar into the grass . . nuff said.

As Roy was gathering a wet rag and I gathering bandaids, Chantel asked in between tears and giggles, "Will you take the picture already?"

So in honor of you, your trophy shot.

Fall leaves 11

2011-10-16T21:36:00.000-06:00

Roy and his girlz went for a drive up the beautiful canyon.
We drove from right hand to left.

The leaves are gorgeous this year.

Yeah, I dunno, but I always seem to find the cow pies, or Pie Cows as Ck calls them. But in all fairness they were hidden beneath leaves. My shoes were a bit sloshy after that.

Poor Ck got hurt in her chicken tenders climbing off the log. Sorry Ck, girls don't have chicken tenders.

Loverly day in the canyon.

Baptism Shoot #2

2011-10-15T23:20:00.000-06:00

This shoot didn't occur in Salt Lake as planned due to an unexpected baptism, but perhaps it's just as well. It gave me more time to play with an updo after her very last soccer game.

There were lady bugs all over the temple. Made CK a little itchy.

Cute lil Ck, my last baptism . . . in Feb.

Warning - friends with boys

2011-10-14T17:36:00.000-06:00

I can't guarantee they won't end up looking like this!

This morning when Cherakie came to cuddle I pondered out loud what my day would be like without kids. She said, "but mom we're all coming back!" and come back they did. 16 of them.

I do love the freedom on Friday's and I love that they play here, and I don't object to offerings of dr pepper and milky ways {thanks DEB}, but I cannot promise they'll stay away from the dress ups or polly pockets. It's a girl house :)!

2011-10-14T10:26:00.000-06:00

Miss Olivia is finally in school :)! She is so ready for normalcy.
Aren't we all?

I'm going to pick up my old friend, my canon 5d, and see if there is an ounce of creativity left in me.

2011-10-13T21:58:00.001-06:00

A gigantic enormous thank you to my dear friend Ronda for having mercy on my lack of canning skills and equipment. I'm so grateful to you and I promise I'll eat it all up, unlike the rusty jars from seasons past :)! We barely made a dent in mountain of apples. But I've got plans for it!

As my ballerinas Chasse-d I lost myself within the walls of my temple. With moments to spare, I remained there and opened to my favorite chapter of all time. Mosiah 18. I often read that chapter while there and I ponder on the beautiful waters of Mormon and why they were so. And somehow I can escape for just a moment.

2011-10-11T15:19:00.000-06:00

It took hard work . . . But I can breathe. My sane room, my one request, one room to always be clean. I'm smelling a new coat of paint :)! Soon to be a guest room.

Miracles

2011-10-11T11:01:00.000-06:00

Bishop asked us not long ago to look for the miracles in our lives.

There have been many miracles in our lives lately.

I saw the sun. And though I am not where I intended to be this morning I have deep gratitude for the abundance of our blessings. I am where I'm intended to be.

2011-10-10T21:29:00.000-06:00

For FHE this fall we are talking about the first principles and ordinances of the gospel to prepare ck for her baptism in February. Tonight we talked about what bishop will ask her in her interview and that she can ask Heavenly Father for herself to know these things we are studying are true.

Each Monday we are also sharing what goals we are working on. Dad is getting the garage clean, I'm working on divine nature #6, Chantel wants to get her patriarchal blessing and is doing individual worth #2, Hailey is passing off article of faith #7, Olivia has already passed off two goals and four articles of faith, but this week is praying in primary and bore her testimony of prayer in FHE, Raquel is making cookies for someone this week, and Cherakie is trying harder to read her books on time.

The best part, dad's banana bread! Loved having him home today :0)!

2011-10-10T15:25:00.000-06:00

Wow, I'm so spoiled! Amazing cake from Amelia yesterday {you can practice on us anytime} YUMMY homemade soup from Joy for lunch, and Sherrie who knows what I shouldn't have but knows especially when I need it. Hailey requests that we reciprocate, peanut m&ms and DC coming your way soon :)!

. . . The prayers, the walks, and calls. My peeps just know when I need uplifting. So grateful for friends!

2011-10-09T16:58:00.000-06:00

Olivia brought this to me after helping Roy dig up potatoes for Nana D.

She loves how odd our potatoes are

2011-10-09T09:57:00.000-06:00

There is something beautiful about a sleeping child. Must be innocence. Hailey asked me to stay with her today.

Hailey loves elephants. She painted this for me, it's us. Being a mom is the greatest blessing ever.

Grateful to have a presidency to rely upon. Thank you girls for letting me be mom today!

Fall Harvest

2011-10-08T23:20:00.000-06:00

The poor apple tree has bowed, begging for relief. Roy and his girlz picked and sorted them today. There is snow on them hills, and a chill in the air. We sigh, are we ready for Cache Valley's Winter?
So many beautiful apples. . . I've loved my garden. Plums off the tree, tomatoes I'm still not tired of devouring. Strawberry jam, till I just couldn't jam anymore. Squash and endless LARGE red potatoes. YUm.

Happy Fall. {Ck lost her tooth at school on Friday - she and a friend who also had a loose tooth stood at the bathroom mirror and at same time pulled them out. Same tooth even, funny funny CK}

2011-10-07T22:00:00.000-06:00

2011-10-06T19:02:00.000-06:00

Heathertopia has seen some unsettling days. You could not pay me enough to relive them. But our family has united in devotion, in love, in prayer, and in scripture study. This book has been a peaceful strength.

I've learned how those with more unsettling times than my own, have relied on their faith to carry them. I've related to their stories of being sustained by the friendship of caring sisters as I have felt the love and prayers of my dear ones near me. In trying times the sisters relied on the power of their covenants. I felt so strongly yesterday that there is safety in my obedience to the covenants I hold dear to my heart. I cannot help but believe there is a grand plan unfolding before me, and the weight is not completely on my shoulders because someone else is in charge. I know in whom to trust.

Get LOST

2011-10-04T16:39:00.000-06:00

Our Annual corn maze - the BROWNS, the GREENS, and the SAVAGES
Nummy ;0)

Makin sense of the map

Not so sure we like to eat field corn, but I reassure you he found this on the ground!

Which Way?

Playing on top of the Mountains

2011-10-02T09:06:00.000-06:00

Roy treated me to my first ever 4 wheel day ride into the mountain tops of Cache Valley. The fall leaves are starting to turn, it was lovely. Our first stop was the site of the recent crash up millville canyon, which seems to have become a popular and legendary destination. Pretty much freaked me out, and I soon learned that the tighter my grip the closer to the edge Roy would drive. If I could appear to be calm it wasn't so fun for him.
We camp down there in left hand. I've always wondered what was in the top of those hills. Now I know.
Roy disappeared off this edge. All we heard was crashing rock. I pondered life insurance policies and my ability to get the 4 wheel back down the mtn.
. . . and then around the mtn he appears. My husband is insane, and a tease!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And a BRAT!
The mountains go on forever.
Oct 1st and still snow on mt Logan.
Our riding buddies and Roy's friends at work.
Hyrum
I remember reading all about Old Ephraim when I was a girl, the story fascinated me, but I've never visited his grave. Can you imagine a bear that gigantic.

Lunch
Dirty, just a little.
Roy climbed along the edge of this cliff throwing rocks down. Looked awesome to climb, not awesome to tumble down. Again I couldn't look.
Texting on the mtn top. They laughed as my phone kept going off. Yep I'm worse than a teenager, but in my mind I am one right?
Thanks for the amazing day with fun peeps and great scenery.

2011-09-30T19:36:00.001-06:00

Tomorrow is already October and yet my girls and I soaked in the wonderful afternoon sun. Fabulous!!!!!

Yes, we swim with those lovely creatures! The water was seriously nasty, I felt like the lil elephant on Tarzan as I wanted to scream, "bacteria!" More disgusting even than a mossy irrigation canal :)!

2011-09-29T22:55:00.000-06:00

Thursday. 4:00. Warm sun. Elderly couples . . . holding hands :). Peace. Clarity. Young Couples . . . happy. LOVE it.

Today, sweet conversation. She brought this butterfly from the hot pavement, to rest. And checked it often as we sat by the fountain.

2011-09-29T14:38:00.000-06:00

Today I was seven again! It felt amazing! But even better, being seven with a friend.

2011-09-28T06:52:00.000-06:00

Somewhere in that dark bus is a tender girl who is counting on me to be there in the dark window waving back. Though I do not see her, she is there.

2011-09-27T21:31:00.000-06:00

Hailey couldn't find her blanket anywhere tonight

Quite distressing, until ck found it wrapped around Hailey's waist. Thanks for the laugh my little weed!

And thanks my love, for fixing the drain even though I don't notice those things. Sorry!

I am blessed!

2011-09-25T21:35:00.000-06:00

Three girls situated, two to go :)

I'm at a loss for words. Happens on occasion.

This amazing picture was taken by Tosha and Tyler, incredible right? I love it especially because I am in the middle of it. Laying inside my camper trailer as the storm fell all around me.

Skating journal

2011-09-21T17:19:00.000-06:00

Ugh! I'm so mad I couldn't leave it at the door. Not even the adrenaline, the sound of the blades, the love of the sport could make my brain function. Skating is empty when I can't bring it!

2011-09-19T22:02:00.000-06:00

CASTLE was great! Too much for Ck though. Summa time is way too long! Glad to have you back :)

Question of the day

2011-09-19T08:43:00.001-06:00

Can I wait till tomorrow to wash this window?

2011-09-19T06:48:00.000-06:00

I had a dream last night it was Tuesday and I missed doing my Monday chores. I awoke and realized it was still Monday and I could clean my bathrooms. It actually made me happy!

I'm so messed up!

But messed up or not I'm making that porcelain shine, and painting a closet, and being president, and making a menu, and finding grocery money somewhere, and making zucchini bread, and chillin' with my buddy frank, and prepping for the best FHE ever. I have a date with my family. Family room couch. 9pm ( yes on a school nite). CASTLE ;)

Happy

2011-09-17T22:55:00.000-06:00

Chantel drew this for me when she was 4. Always makes me happy. I thought I'd share this happiness with you. What brings you joy?

2011-09-17T15:40:00.000-06:00

I'm loving the color. Can't wait to decorate! I'm seeing soft pink and Raquel's pictures in the field. Gotsta find blue in there somewhere for Ck. I wonder how fun it'll be after having had their own rooms for years. Hmm . . . time will tell.

2011-09-16T22:32:00.000-06:00

Working hard in anticipation for a new room :)

Gone are the days of the red room.

Beautiful

2011-09-15T19:02:00.001-06:00

Coach and I hit all my silver moves today. I can do them! I do it terribly now, but I know how to do it in my mind. Someday my body will catch up! LOL! I love the Thursday public session, hanging with my sk8ta peeps.

Afterwards Roy and I had THE BEST sandwich at the Aggie place next to his bank. Felt a little pretty woman-ish in my booty shorts and tights, dining with Roy in his Banker clothes. He was a lil embarrassed as well and had to explain why I was dressed the way I was. Sorry Love. {But Secretly you know I'm hot :)}

The past couple weeks after dropping Miss Raquel at Ballet, I've sat on temple grounds. I LOVE to see little old couples holding hands :). . . It's amazing! All of a sudden the world just makes sense and is beautiful.

Because they love the temple

2011-09-13T15:15:00.001-06:00

I stole a quick shower to get ready before the kiddos left. When I got out I found raquel finishing up not only hers but cherakie's lunch too. She is a great big sister. I'm so grateful they make Tuesday mornings so wonderful. There could only be one reason.

Harvesting

2011-09-12T22:19:00.000-06:00

The girls labored all summer for our corn, each having a row to tend. Roy planted it in phases which worked out great.

For FHE last night we put up the last of what Roy wants to put up for the year.
Roy Picked.
The girls husked.
And danced. And husked. But mostly danced.
Raquel created corn husk fashions.
Ck avoided the bugs by being a runner.
and watching the water boil

Roy cooked then he and I cut. I bagged them. Sorry luv, no vacuum pac sealer in these lips. BUT I got them tight.
270 cups of corn. 90 bags for winter. A sunday dinner treat. Now on to even more strawberries. They just keep coming this year.

Season Opener

2011-09-10T16:38:00.000-06:00

Ck has worried that since McKayslin wasn't playing this year, she wouldn't know what to do. Her ears are tuned into Mrs. Reynolds voice and she loves her yelling. With my cold I couldn't promise her anything but I told CK to listen for her coaches voice. I yelled. I know . . . I'm almost soccer mom. It was hillarious as once Cherakie heard me, she shook her head back and forth quickly as if she were "reprograming," she looked at me, then continued playing.
I LOVE watching her play. Soccer is HERS - she owns it in our family aNd I love watching her because there is not an ounce of me in that child. Take this aggressiveness for example. I had an outside shot, I was quick, and I had some tricky ball handling thanks to Coach G in basketball but aggressive I was NOT!
A mother's apology to the sweet girl my Ck just ran over.

Ck came out for a quarter break and said, "I was running and thought, Man I'm a soccer princess."
Ego an issue? Maybe just a little. Cute in a 7 year old not so much as gets bigger. {ok there you go - the ounce of me I've been searching for ;)} For now it's giving her confidence. YOU GO SOCCER PRINCESS!

Happy Friday

2011-09-09T06:58:00.001-06:00

It's 20 to seven am. I'm sitting on the couch with my middleschooler who got up and got ready but now has crashed and is sleeping soundly. #4 is also up an hour early and is as hyper as ever, which will undoubtedly result in mid afternoon tanty's. She's checking my post for grammatical errors waiting to play a game on my phone. Raquel just walked in from outside. My heart stopped, imagining my sleep walker spending most of the night curled up on my door step. No she was just giving Hailey a hug, but she doesn't remember putting her piggy bank in the bathroom or lining up her blanket with the tub.

As for today I've decided I'll stay in my long johns buddled in my blanket, I've taken ill probably the result of jumping in the lake. Sorry neighborhood kids the dishes will probably still be on my counter! Have a great Friday!

Skating Journal

2011-09-07T12:32:00.000-06:00

The silver moves are over stimulating my brain. So over my head or at least my brain is having a hard enough time processing that I don't even know what my body is doing lol! I even forget how to speak proper grammar. My poor coach! But I LOVE IT! Why? Because this is so hard for me in the beginning but with hard work I get there! I've done it before and I'm determined!

But to give myself a little break I have to celebrate my small triumphs. I can now tie my skates properly! Aren't they pretty? Now back to my 8 step Mohawk and my backward cross strokes.

Hailey's Message of the Day

2011-09-07T08:58:00.000-06:00

I'm feeling lost and empty, more empty than lost.

Sweet little weed did it again . . .
IF YOU WANT TO FLY LIKE A BUTTERFLY DON'T FLAP LIKE A CROW

Helen Keller said, "One can never consent to creep when one feels an impulse to soar"

I want to fly like a butterfly with every ounce of me wanting to soar. Without my heart I flap like a crow. Then why the emptiness?

Haha or the crows wings could be my self sabotaging perfectionistic ways! Going with the impulse :)!

2011-09-06T14:39:00.001-06:00

This morning while cleaning up after the mayhem I found a note on the fridge. A tender message from Weed to her sisters.

Made my day happy to see the sweet and quiet act of love.

Labor Day Camp '11

2011-09-05T22:28:00.000-06:00

This is the first camp of the year that we were able to break out the 4wheelers. The kiddos loved them. They've earned more freedom. One evening we even sent the kids on three 4wheelers out for firewood. Darkness fell. The men found wood on the hillside, but Mandi and I grew a little worried knowing our kids wouldn't return until they had successfully found a stack of wood. Soon the lights of three four wheelers pulled slowly up the hill with a stack on each 4wheeler with proud chillins in tow.
and my favorite. . .

The water is so cold it takes a minute to gain the courage . . . well for them . . .
. . . and Sherrie! She didn't even hold on this year!

I wanna know what is up the the men? They have yet to jump in . . . except for Keats who was so brave this year.
Keaton got a bb gun. The big peeps had just as much fun.
Cherakie statue dancin'
Boogah waiting for a ride with his dad.
Miss Raquel wanted a picture with Rocco her bestest Green friend. He has camped with us forever but sadly is showing signs of getting old.
I spent some time this weekend studying more on photography. Loved playing with the settings on this waterfall. Which at some point in time saw a large bottle of apple juice and my prized watermelon I was craving after fast sunday and which Roy said let's put it in the creek to cool down. I made him search a long time for that learning lesson, stinging nettle and all.
Before we packed up Hailey wanted to take me for a ride. Sometimes ignorance is bliss. Kinda glad I didn't know how far they were venturing and playing.
Luckily she's a cautious driver.